TRANSFORM YOUR EMUNAH!

233 - Ripple Effect

We've been discussing the idea that Torah commentaries bring, that an extension of emunah - believing in Hashem, is to believe in ourselves. If Hashem believes in me, not only do I have the license to believe in myself, but I am obligated to believe in myself, because if I neglect to do so, I am in a sense denying Hashem's will. True humility does not mean to deny the truth. If Hashem made me a good businessman and I am doing my best to use my talents in service of Hashem, really trying to work hard and use the money for good causes, if I am complimented that I am a good businessman and trying to be humble, I deny that fact - that is not humility - that is just speaking words of untruth. And in a similar vein, if you know yourself to be a kind and warm individual, and when complimented on how nice it is to see someone so warm and kind, one denies that fact, again that is not humility, that is just speaking words of untruth.
Some commentaries explain that true humility means, when I am able to write about myself, "I am the humblest of all men." What exactly does this mean? We know that a verse in the Torah which Moshe Rabbeinu wrote himself states, "I, Moshe Rabbeinu, am the humblest of all men." And when Hashem told him to write so, he did not argue with Hashem and say, Hashem let's leave this line out of the Torah. And the commentaries explain, because Moshe Rabbeinu was a man of truth, he knew that he was the humblest man that will ever exist and therefore he was able to write that verse down. But at the same time, he was able to attribute his successes, talents and abilities, not to his own doing, but completely relating it to the gifts that Hashem has given him. If I am able to realize that any talent I might have is a gift from Hashem, and not because of my own cunning and doing, I am then able to acknowledge my talents and gifts that Hashem has given me, and believe in myself and use them to the highest degree, whilst at the same time never falling to arrogance, believing that it is only because of my cunning and doing that I am successful in these areas, God forbid, but only because Hashem has given me these gifts. 
Let us remind ourselves that any and every deed that we might perform has ripple effects beyond anything we can imagine. Firstly, in this world, we do not see the spiritual effects of our actions and if we do a mitzvah, from the smallest to the biggest mitzvah, perhaps giving one coin to charity, giving somebody a smile, learning Torah for 30 seconds, saying a short prayer, to doing these mitzvos in their ideal manner, such as giving a large amount of tzedakah, or learning Torah for a long period, or making a long prayer; if we are able to humble ourselves to believe that we do not understand and we do not see in this world the impact of our actions, and when we perform a mitzvah there are spiritual worlds being affected to degrees way beyond anything in this world can be affected, then we will certainly be motivated to realize that we should believe in ourselves and we can make a huge difference. 
Sometimes Hashem does decide to show us a little bit of inspiration, again to motivate us. Let's say a person decides to give a relatively small amount to charity. I decide to give $18 for a certain cause because this is what I can afford in this particular situation. But in passing, when I tell somebody else about this cause and how I donated to it, they decide that they are going to donate $1,800 to this cause on a monthly basis. I might never find out that the ripple effect of me giving my little one-time tzedakah affected many thousands of dollars being donated to this cause. Sometimes we do experience where an individual will approach one and tell them how the effect of their mitzvah had a tremendous ripple effect on them. "Thank you Hashem for teaching me that my main purpose in this world is to develop my emunah, ultimately trusting in You, and by extension, in the words of the sages, and extending it one step further, to believe in myself."

232 - Terrorist Attack

We've been discussing how Torah commentaries bring that one of the extensions of what it means to have emunah in Hashem is to believe in myself. If Hashem believes in me to the extent that He blessed me with certain abilities and talents, so certainly following the path of emunah and believing in Hashem, I am called on to always in any endeavor reach out to Hashem and ask Him to bring me success, and thereafter believe in myself that I can do it.
Let us remind ourselves that the whole purpose of this world is emunah, specifically to believe when I don't see. Just like I can't see Hashem, but I am called on to live a life where everything revolves around Hashem, even though I can't see Him, again based on emunah, based on belief, similarly, when it comes to my actions, I am not allowed to see the true effect of those actions in this world, because again if I was able to see the true spiritual impact of my actions, that would not be emunah anymore. 
When I give a coin to charity, I don't see any particular change in the world. When I give somebody a smile, learn a word of Torah, make a prayer, or any one of the many mitzvos that we have, much of the time we might not even feel any inspiration or change whatsoever, and that being the case, without building our faith in Hashem, our faith in ourselves that we are making a difference, a huge difference, bigger than anything we can imagine in this world, we will not be motivated to the correct degree. Many Torah commentaries outline this idea as a basic fundamental principle to the Torah. 
One of many stories that some of the Torah greats tell is the following. There was an individual who passed away, and when he came to the heavenly court, as we know, there is a heavenly accounting, and of course these are spiritual ideas, but to put it in terms that we can understand, a whole lot of white angels appeared corresponding to the mitzvos that this person fulfilled. And thereafter he saw some black angels coming, corresponding to the sins committed in this world. And slowly but surely, the side of the scale with the black angels started to get heavier and heavier, and eventually outweighed the white angels. And the man was panicking, because when the scorecard is such that there are more black angels than white, that means trouble. 
And suddenly, from far, again in our terms, just to give us a little bit of an understanding within the vocabulary we use, the man noticed that a huge bus was approaching, and soon the bus joined the white angels on their side of the scale. And the scale completely tipped in favor of the white angels - of the mitzvos. And the man was ecstatic, and when he asked for an explanation, he was told that this huge bus was filled with white angels. And even though he could not see how these mitzvos were related to him, they explained to him that there was just one time in his life where he had an opportunity to view something inappropriate, and because he fulfilled the tremendous mitzvah of guarding his eyes, as opposed to committing the sin of viewing something inappropriate, in the merit of that, Hashem decreed that a certain terrorist attack that was supposed to take place in another city, against an entire bus full of Jewish people, was saved due to His one action. And therefore, the merit of all the mitzvos that these people did throughout their lives came to help Him to outweigh the aveira on His scorecard. 
We have no concept of what it means to do a mitzvah, and likewise to do an aveira. We are taught that when a person does a mitzvah, we create spiritual worlds beyond anything we can even imagine can be encompassed within this world, and likewise with regards to the negative effect of our aveiros. What a privilege we have to view the world from the true lens of Emunah, not based on our understanding, which so much of the time can be misleading and mistaken, but rather from the true perspective, Hashem's perspective, which as discussed many times, is portrayed to us throughout the vast amount of information that we have through the Torah commentaries and leaders that Hashem has given us - Emunah.

231 - Bulletproof Confidence

We've been discussing the three types of emunah that the Torah commentaries bring. The first one, our life's work that we are most familiar with - making our maximum effort to take the emunah and bitachon that we've learnt about and trying to transform that to truly living our lives according to their values. The second type that we discussed was emunas chachamim - believing in the words of the sages, not just based on our understanding, but also appreciating that because of their holiness and closeness in their relationship to Hashem, Hashem has commanded us to follow their guidance. And again, just like when it comes to emunah and Hashem Himself, we don't do so because we understand, but rather we follow Hashem based on our emunah - our belief, similarly, when it comes to emunas chachamim, we are called on to build our emunah in the words of the sages. 
When we read a section of the Torah, of the Gemara, of the Shulchan Aruch and the like, our job is to build our emunah, that just like we would be so inspired and motivated if Hashem would tell us that information Himself, in a sense this is the same thing when we read these passages, because the oral tradition was given to Moshe Rabbeinu by Hashem, and just like at the giving of the Torah, we know that Hashem Himself revealed Himself to the Jewish people for the first two of the Ten Commandments, but because the experience was so overwhelming, the Jewish people requested that the rest should be transmitted only to Moshe Rabbeinu, who would then relay the information to them. Perhaps this is one reason why Hashem doesn't reveal Himself to every one of us in an obviously revealed manner the same way that He did to Moshe Rabbeinu, and there may be many other reasons, but the bottom line is that the words of the sages come directly from Hashem, and our job is to build our emunah chachamim.
And the third type of emunah that the Torah commentaries bring is emunah in oneself - belief in oneself. And as we discussed, self-confidence can come from two different places. When self-confidence comes from the place of, "I am able to do this", and I forget to bring Hashem into the picture, although if I have certain strategies, I might be able to portray or feel what people usually refer to as self-confidence, however in truth, this is certainly not something that we should aim at. The true self-confidence - emunah in ourselves, that we should be aiming at, is again an extension of emunah in Hashem. If I believe in Hashem, and Hashem believes in me, then certainly I should believe in myself. And therefore whatever opportunities Hashem has presented me in my life, whatever abilities He might have given me, after praying to Hashem and asking Him to help me in my endeavor, I should certainly feel confident that I can do it. 
"Hashem my Father, thank You so much for teaching me this incredible Torah teaching about how important it is to believe in myself. Because the truth is, Hashem, that if You believe in me, I have no right not to believe in myself. Hashem, sometimes I say to myself, what is my Torah learning even worth? I barely have a background in Torah learning. I struggle so much with basic Torah learning, whereas there are so many people that have had so much more exposure than me, and their Torah learning is at a level much higher than mine. Hashem, please help me to remove these terrible thoughts from my heart and mind. 
Because Hashem, if You believe in me, and You've told me that there is a mitzvah to learn Torah, and that's applicable to everyone, just like I believe in You whether I understand it or not, I also believe that if You commanded me to learn Torah, regardless of how much value I might feel that may have, I don't want to do things because of my understanding; I want to do it because of emunah. Please Hashem, help me to believe in myself, that even if I am able to read just a few passages from Torah literature in English on a daily basis, that I should treat that time with absolute highest priority, and realize that like the Gemara teaches, "bishvili nivra haolam" - the entire world was created just for me. And when I go ahead and learn Torah in those few moments, that is the core reason that You created the entire world for, including everything encompassed within it. 
Hashem, at times it is difficult for me to feel confident to go ahead with the ideas that I have in myself, of what I believe I can contribute to the world. Please Hashem, help me always, first and foremostly, to reach out to You and not fall in the trap of looking at other addresses to try to find my self-confidence, but rather always coming to You and begging You for help and success. And after I have done so, Hashem, please help me to be so confident, because if You believe in me, I have every reason in the world to believe in myself."

230 - Believe In Yourself

We've been discussing how the Torah commentaries break down emunah into three parts. The first one, simple emunah and bitachon, placing our trust and reliance on Hashem, as we've discussed much about. The second one, emunas chachamim, where we extend our belief in Hashem to belief in the words of Moshe Rabbeinu, and by extension, the sages, where the tradition was passed down early to, from generation to generation. And the third category of emunah that Torah commentaries outline is having emunah in yourself. Rav Tzadok HaKoen, as well as many other Torah commentaries, discuss this idea. 
When we wake up in the morning, the first line we are supposed to say is "modeh ani", which ends with the words "rabba emunasecha". One interpretation of these words is, "Hashem, your emunah in me is very great." We are declaring that Hashem has a lot of faith in me. Hashem created me in the first place, and He decided that today I should wake up again for a new day. If there was no purpose for me in the world today, and I believe that Hashem orchestrates every single detail in the world, then why would He have given me another day of life? There is no question in the world that if I woke up today, I have a very specific purpose that nobody else in the world can fulfill. 
And in the words of the Gemara, every person is obligated to believe, "bishvili nivra haolam" - that the entire world was created just for me. Let's just take those words to heart. All the people in the world, all the investments, all the projects, the sun, moon, and stars, and we can go on. It was all created for one purpose; just for me. Digesting that idea should help motivate me what a tremendous opportunity I have in this world. But not only that, what a tremendous responsibility I have in this world. Because in Hashem's greatness, He is able to create everything exclusively just for you, and He is able to do that with regards to everyone. Now if Hashem decided to create this entire world, including everything comprised within it, just for you, there is no question He believes in you, and you have a purpose in this world that nobody else can fulfill. 
If Hashem believes in you, and you decide not to believe in yourself, in a sense one is denying Hashem. Hashem is saying X, and I am saying Y. By the fact that Hashem gave me the abilities in what I have to contribute to the world, from the smallest of the smallest ways, to the biggest of the biggest ways; if I have the ability to give somebody a smile, which is one of the greatest mitzvos, or perhaps I am in a position to give charity, or perhaps I am able to learn Torah, or perhaps I am able to pray, talking to Hashem in my own words, and the list goes on and is tailor-made for every individual - every single one of us has our unique talents and abilities, and we are therefore called on to believe in ourselves. When a person commits a sin, one might feel, maybe I am not worthy anymore, but again, if I woke up today, Hashem believes in me. Even if it was the worst of sins, Hashem believes in me, that there is potential for me to do teshuvah and rectify what I did wrong and become great.
Just like when it comes to emunah, one can never tell the true level of somebody else's emunah. Sometimes, two people who are presented with a potentially anxiety-provoking situation may respond in a similar manner. They both might be very calm. It could be that the one individual's natural tendency is just to be calm, even though they might have barely worked on their emunah and bitachon. And certainly this is barely an achievement, because this is just the way Hashem made them. It could be the other individual naturally leans towards feelings of anxiety, and because of this individual's growth in emunah and bitachon, is now able to feel calm.
And in a similar vein, when it comes to people who appear to be self-confident, it can come in one of two different ways. Sometimes that self-confidence can come from a place completely contrary to the values of emunah. Sometimes people believe in themselves because they believe they are the master to their own destiny, and because they have been successful in some areas of their life, that leads them to arrogance and sometimes can be viewed as self-confidence. Whereas another individual who is on the path of true emunah and bitachon might be led to a place of true self-confidence, not because of arrogance, God forbid, but rather because if Hashem believes in me, I can certainly believe in myself.

229 - Choosing Your Rabbi

We've been discussing what the Torah commentaries divide into three types of emunah, and whilst our main focus is always revolving around the core of everything - emunah and bitochen in Hashem, it is certainly worthwhile to also delve into the other areas that the Torah commentaries discuss. We spoke about the second type of emunah - emunas chachamim, where we are called on to believe in the words of our sages, starting from Moshe Rabbeinu who received the oral tradition directly from Hashem and was passed down from generation to generation. 
And as we spoke about, the Midrash brings down that we are supposed to reach such a level of emunas chachamim, of belief in the words of the sages, that with regards to the Sanhedrin, the great beis din of times of old, even if they were to tell us the right is the left, or the left is the right, we are supposed to aim to reach such a high level of belief in their words, that we will listen regardless of our understanding. Jjust like we do not understand Hashem's doings and we are called on to believe and place our trust in Him, by extension, we are called on to believe in the words of the holy sages who have a special close relationship with Hashem, and Hashem has designated to be guides for us in our lives. 
As mentioned, the Rambam outlines that the oral tradition that was given to Moshe Rabbeinu directly from Hashem was passed down from generation to generation to specific individuals. The Mishnah in Pirkei Avos teaches, that one is supposed to make for themselves a rabbi. Part of the purpose of doing so is that when a question arises in halacha that I am not able to investigate and find the answer to myself, I am now able to seek the guidance of an authentic talmid chacham who is well-versed in all areas of Torah and is able to guide us when it comes to halacha. 
Another fundamental principle is the concept of da'as torah - that when a person needs to make a decision - of course much of the time I am able to find the answer myself, but with regards to certain areas of my life where I have a question mark, besides doing research and as discussed many times, talking to Hashem and asking Him for clarity, we are called on to seek guidance from Torah leaders who are authentic talmid chachamim and tzaddikim who are able to guide us in the right direction.
In times of old, the concept of a personal rabbi was very different to how it is today. Because the oral Torah was not written down, most of the Torah information I received was from the Torah teaching of my rabbi. And that being the case, there were very many serious laws with regards to the respect of one's Torah teacher. One example, as brought in Shulchan Aruch Yoreh Deah section 242, is that anybody who argues with his rabbi - and again this is a rabbi in times of old who one is learning all the Torah information from, and there was no Torah literature available in books - it's as if he's arguing with the shechina. 
And there are many other similar statements. There is a lot of Torah literature available about emunas chachamim, and one is certainly encouraged to pursue this topic further. For our purposes right now, it is worthwhile to mention that Torah commentaries bring that one of the extensions of having emunah in Hashem is building our belief in the words of the sages - emunas chachamim, which of course starts with Moshe Rabbeinu and was passed down from generation to generation all the way through to the sages of the Gemara. 
In today's times, where it is not always as clear as to who exactly that chain was passed down to. In order to fulfill this advice of the mission in Pirkei Avos which says one ought to make for oneself a rabbi, one of the greatest things we can do in trying to make an effort to find them is ask Hashem and say, "Hashem, please can you help me to fulfill the mitzvah of emunas chachamim - of belief in the words in the sages, to the highest degree, and even in our day and age today, Hashem, please can you guide me and help me to find the rabbi, talmid chacham, and tzaddik, who could be most suited for my situation and guide me in the most ideal way for my life."

228 - The Jewish Leader

Torah authorities explain that emunah can be divided into three different segments. The first one is to build our emunah and bitachon in Hashem, which is the main focus of this daily inspiration that we've been discussing every day. The second type of emunah that the Torah authorities discuss is emunas chachamim, to believe in the words of the sages. The Midrash teaches that we are supposed to reach such a high level of belief in the words of the sages that even if they would tell us that the right is the left or the left is the right, something completely counterintuitive to our understanding, we should believe their words. 
Now of course, to reach such a level of faith in the words of the sages needs to be based on understanding why I should do so, and also it needs to be defined who is considered part of the sages. Let's discuss the Ramban at the end of Parashas Bo, who explains the following: In times of old, there were three types of idolaters. Some of them denied Hashem's existence at all, whereas others admitted that Hashem does exist but assumed that He doesn't know what's going on in the world. And a third category of people admitted that Hashem does exist and knows what's going on in the world, but according to their mistaken approach, Hashem doesn't care about what goes on in the world. And all these approaches are types of avodah zarah, of idol worship. 
And as the Ramban there explains, because Hashem wanted to give people the opportunity to move away from these forms of idol worship and rather move towards a real meaningful life according to the values of Emunah, Hashem changed the laws of nature when He performed the miracles at the exodus from Egypt, such as the plagues and the splitting of the sea. And the Ramban explains that after this happened, people now had the opportunity to clearly believe that Hashem runs the show and the world does not just operate according to the laws of nature, but rather Hashem is orchestrating every single moment.
However, Ramban adds an additional point which was gained through this episode, in that Moshe Rabbeinu, the leader of the Jewish people, predicted the miracles before they transpired at the exodus from Egypt. And therefore, after the miracles happened, not only did the people gain a belief in Hashem, but they also gained a belief that this Moshe Rabbeinu had a particularly close relationship with Hashem and his advice must be heeded. So just like the people were able to acknowledge Hashem's existence after this experience, similarly they were able to acknowledge Moshe Rabbeinu's role as a leader of the Jewish people.
It is well known that the Torah was given to Moshe Rabbeinu in two forms, one is the written Torah and secondly, he was given many teachings orally. The Mishnayos in Pirkei Avos discuss how from generation to generation, those laws that were transmitted from Hashem to Moshe Rabbeinu directly, were passed down from generation to generation via specific leaders who were chosen to be the leaders of those generations. And the Rambam, in the introduction to the Mishnah, outlines all the leaders, even in times much closer to ours, that their chain of tradition can be traced all the way back to Moshe Rabbeinu, who received it directly from Hashem.
May we all merit to excel in all the different forms of Emunah that the Torah commentaries teach us ultimately stem from Emunah in Hashem. Of course in our Emunah and Bitachon endeavour itself, to grow in our belief and reliance on Hashem, but also by extension, to believe in the words of the sages. For whatever reason, usually in today's day and age, Hashem does not reveal Himself to us in an openly revealed manner, but rather, the way He communicates to us is via the information that He relays to us in His Torah, both in the written Torah as well as in the oral Torah. 
Let us then appreciate that all parts of the Torah, both the written Torah, as well as the entirety of the oral Torah, including all of the words of the sages, are ultimately the words of Hashem. And just like we are called on to build our belief in Hashem Himself, let us also make our maximum effort to build our belief in the words of the sages - Emunas Chachamim.

227 - Chanukah (Day-8)

As the festival of Chanukah comes to its culmination, let us remind ourselves of what the Ramban writes about open miracles, that although usually the world operates under the veil of nature, however when Hashem performs open miracles, one of the main objectives is to give us the opportunity to derive inspiration and motivate us to living lives according to the values of emunah and bitachon - that ultimately every single moment of our lives, although they might appear to be moving according to the laws of nature, are actually being orchestrated directly and personally from Hashem Himself. 
We discussed of what Rav Yosef Albo in the Sefer Ha'ikarim writes, that the opportunity to rely on Hashem and reach out to Hashem for help, as opposed to going to a different address, is part of the laws of nature of how Hashem made the world operate. If one chooses to rely on Hashem, Hashem will come through, and in the words of Rav Yosef Albo, just like we know the sun is expected to rise tomorrow, to the same extent if I rely on Hashem, I can expect that He will come through for me. Although on the one hand, when we take to heart the miracles of Chanukah, it can be inspiring and motivating to live our lives according to the values of emunah and bitachon, however on the other hand, it can sometimes be disheartening when we bring to mind those miracles, because after all is said and done, most of us in today's day and age do not experience such outright miracles. Does that mean, perhaps, that the opportunity to have emunah and bitachon is only available to super-righteous individuals, and maybe it's not applicable to me? 
There could be many reasons why in general Hashem wants the world to work under the veil of nature. One reason that many commentaries mention is to give us the opportunity to have emunah and bitachon, and believe, specifically when we aren't able to understand why He is doing what He is doing. But as discussed, there are times where Hashem decides to come through in a more apparent way, sometimes in an outright miraculous manner, such as in the episode of Chanukah, and at other times perhaps more relevant to each one of us, although it might not be in an absolute outright miraculous manner, but there are times where we might make a prayer and see Hashem come through for us in the way we requested, and the like. 
One might say, "okay, I understand, Hashem certainly does exist and runs every detail of the world, and certainly He can do miracles and break the laws of nature, because ultimately He created nature and runs every detail of the world. But that's very nice for people who have reached a high level of righteousness. But what about me? How is this applicable to me? Why would Hashem come through for me in my life? Perhaps I've even committed many sins." Let us remind ourselves of one of the most fundamental, but sometimes most misunderstood principles when it comes to bitachon. The opportunity to have bitachon and rely on Hashem is completely independent of our actions. As the Ramban in his sefer Emunah Bitachon, explains, the verse states, Betach b'Hashem va'aseh tov, trust in Hashem and do good. The Ramban points out that the verse specifically states, "trust in Hashem" first, to teach us that one is able to trust in Hashem independent of our actions.
And this idea that anyone, regardless of our spiritual scorecard, is able to trust in Hashem is brought down by countless Torah sources, from the Midrash to the Rishonim such as Ramban and Rabbeinu Yonah, all the way down to the later authorities such as the Chofetz Chaim in Nefutzos Yisrael, chapter 8, who state that even if a person does not have merits and might even be classified as a rasha, an evil individual, just like the sun rises in the morning, the opportunity to have bitachon is available to every one of us. And if we practice our reliance on Hashem, Hashem will come through for us. 
"Hashem, my Father, as we come to the culmination of Chanukah, these holy days that You've granted us, please will You bless me and help me not to fall into the trap of those that trust and rely on other individuals, because as we learn from the Chovos HaLevavos, when one does so, I actually become under their auspices. Whereas, when I choose to rely on You, You will come through for me, and it is completely independent of my spiritual level. This act of relying on You will be the greatest asset that I can have, both in this world as well as for my eternal reward in the next world."

226 - Chanukah (Day-7)

We've been discussing how Chanukah is a tremendous opportunity to springboard a boost in our emunah and bitachon endeavor. Although most of us are not on the level to experience outright open miracles like we experienced during Chanukah, however, when we fulfill the mitzvos of Chanukah and give ourselves an opportunity to contemplate on the reason why we're lighting the Chanukah candles, that we're commemorating the outright miracles Hashem performed for us, be it the oil that burned for much longer than any of the laws of nature would dictate, or be it the unprecedented victory of just a handful of people against a large army - one of the main take-homes of these episodes, and one of our focuses during Chanukah, should be the basic conclusion that many Torah sources teach: bitachon works. It is not something that sometimes works and sometimes doesn't. When one relies on Hashem, it works. 
In the words of one of the Rishonim, Rav Yosef Albo, in his Sefer Haikarim, he writes that just like we are sure that the sun will rise tomorrow, to the same extent one can be sure that if you rely on Hashem, He will come through for you. The only qualification to this rule is like the verse in Ashrei teaches, that Hashem is close to all who call out to Him, as long as they call out sincerely. One level of having bitachon is to say, "of course I rely on Hashem and He is my address to go to, however, I have a back-up plan in case Hashem doesn't come through for me." Although it is commendable that one is including Hashem in the picture, however, this is certainly far from the ultimate bitachon. As the Chovos Halevavos writes to the introduction of his Sefer, that when a person places their trust in another individual or circumstance, Hashem actually removes His own providence from that individual and places them in the hands of whoever they are relying on, or whatever circumstance they might think they are bound by. 
This is a frighteningly powerful statement. On the one hand, it is clear from countless Torah sources, that when one truly places their trust in Hashem, Hashem will come through for them. And as Rav Yosef Albo in the Sefer Haikkarim taught us, this is a basic equation: Just like Hashem placed it in the laws of nature for the sun to rise in the morning, so too, if one relies on Hashem, Hashem will come through for them. However, on the other side of the spectrum, the Chovos Halevavos is teaching us another principle of how Hashem operates in this world - that if one does choose to rely on another individual or circumstance, then Hashem removes Himself from the situation, and I become bound to the control of this individual or situation that I am relying on. 
And of course, there are many levels between these two extremes. Sometimes we rely on Hashem, but at the back of our mind, we have a backup plan in case Hashem doesn't really come through for us. And although that is commendable that we are relying on Hashem to some degree, however, because we are not doing so to its full degree, we then become in the hands of other individuals or circumstances to some degree. The tremendous miracles of Chanukah are teaching us that yes, although we have a mitzvah to make our effort to do our hishtadlus in the world, however, a step before that is to take to heart, without a shadow of a doubt, that Hashem exclusively is orchestrating every single detail in my life. And the more I will choose to rely on Hashem, the more He will come through for me, and the less I will choose to rely on other people and circumstances, the less I will be bound by their auspices.
"Hashem, my Father, as we approach this final day of Chanukah, please can You help me to truly place my trust in You, to the extent that I really internalize that anything and everything that happens in my life is completely from You, and I have the constant opportunity to reach out to You exclusively and rely on You. And Hashem, You've taught me in Your Torah sources that if I rely on You exclusively, that is the time specifically that You will come through for me. Hashem, it's difficult in this world, because the way the natural world looks, it seems like I'm dependent on people and circumstances. But the scary thing is, that when I do depend on them, You actually put me in their hands, as the Chovos Halevavos has taught us. Please Hashem, help me to not rely on anyone nor anything except for You exclusively."

225 - Chanukah (Day-6)

The incredible miracles of Chanukah serve to inspire us throughout our lives, that just like Hashem performed miracles against all the laws of nature, such as causing oil to burn for much longer than anything nature would allow, as well as causing a handful of people to win a war completely against any and all of the laws that nature can dictate, when we make an effort to internalize these miracles, it can serve as a tremendous springboard to inspire us throughout our lives and remind ourselves of what we've learned countless times from so many Torah sources: Our purpose in this world is to excel in our emunah endeavor. And what it means to have emunah is specifically to believe when I don't see and I am not able to understand the reason why things are happening. Throughout my life, usually, things play according to the laws of nature. But our job is to constantly make an effort to find Hashem through the natural occurrences and taking to heart the miracles of Chanukah can serve as a tremendous springboard to be able to live our lives according to those values. 
Just like Hashem has blessed us with these holy days that serve to inspire us throughout the rest of our lives, that all of nature in essence is an outright miracle, and the same Hashem who caused the mann, the miraculous food that fell from the heavens for the Jewish people during their journey in the desert, is the exact same Hashem who provides for our paranosah today; and the same Hashem who split the sea for the Jewish people when they were surrounded by danger from all their sides and had nowhere to escape, is the same Hashem who has saved us in our personal lives so many times in so many ways. There are people that die daily in car accidents. How many times have I been in a car without having an accident? If we open our eyes, we will see that our life is full of constant miracles of how Hashem comes through for us, but again, our job is to find Hashem in the course of nature. 
Without the emunah mindset, one's thought process might be, "yes, although I didn't have a car accident today, however, most people in the world do not die daily in car accidents. Although it does happen to some people sometimes, however, why should I expect that that should be something that could transpire to me, and therefore why should I necessarily be appreciative about that fact?" Whereas when we are able to look past the veil of nature and realize that just like Hashem was the One who so apparently and obviously was our Savior when we were surrounded by danger from all sides and split the sea in a way that there was no question that Hashem was the only One who could do that, and there was no nature to attribute that miracle to, similarly, when we go through a day without a car accident, or the other million miracles that we experience on a daily basis, our job is to link those happenings to Hashem's doing as opposed to just assuming that that is the course of nature, God forbid, excluding Hashem from our lives. 
Many people have experienced Hashem coming through for them in their lives in one way or another. Although usually in our times this is not in an apparently obvious and miraculous manner, however countless people have told their experiences of having seen Hashem come through for them in their lives. When a person prays to Hashem for a new business opportunity and it just so happens that a couple days or perhaps even hours later one receives a call from another individual with a new opportunity, or perhaps one is just looking for a parking spot, and just as one makes that prayer and asks Hashem to help them, it just so happens that someone is leaving just then, making the spot available. If we are just to open our eyes, we will quickly see that Hashem is everywhere and we can constantly witness Him under the veil of nature on a moment-to-moment basis. Our job is to open our eyes and through these days of Chanukah we have a special power and energy to internalize that ultimately every single moment of our lives is an outright miracle.

224 - Chanukah (Day-5)

We are so privileged to be able to experience another one of these holy days of Chanukah. Besides the miracle of the oil, which we commemorate with the lighting of the Chanukah candles, where the amount of oil which was only supposed to last for one day, against all the laws of nature, lasted for eight days, again clearly showing that although usually the world seems to run according to the laws and course of nature, however, as the Ramban at the end of Parashat Bo, that we've discussed many times, points out that the reason Hashem performs these outright miracles is in order to inspire and motivate us for the times when Hashem is hidden under the veil of nature, to teach us that there's no such thing ultimately as nature, that ein od milvado, there is nothing else in the world that exists except for Hashem - there is no force or power or individual or circumstance that can dictate even slightly what will occur in my life, except for Hashem exclusively, and as outlined in the Rambam's principles of faith, "vehu levado" - Hashem exclusively, meaning without the help of any individual runs every single detail of nature.
And as we've discussed previously, although we do have a mitzvah to make our own efforts throughout life, however, it is so important to never fall into the trap of believing even slightly that my efforts are what cause my successes, because as we've discussed, that could borderline on the tremendously grave sin of idol worship, where I believe that there is some power outside of Hashem, God forbid, and the tremendous miracle of Hanukkah is coming to teach us that just like Hashem is able to come and take oil and make it miraculously burn much longer than it is supposed to according to the laws of nature, so too any and every occurrence throughout our lives are ultimately miracles that Hashem is orchestrating every single moment. 
Besides the miracle of the oil on Chanukah, the other tremendous miracle that we commemorate is the war that transpired, which according to the laws of nature, logic and statistics would make anybody laugh at the absurdity of such an attempt. We are taught that it was only a handful of people that decided to take on an entire huge and powerful army. Just imagine in our times, ten people would get together and say, "we are now going to take on this mission to go and destroy our enemy and the entire army of thousands and thousands of people." Besides the fact that we are completely, absurdly outnumbered, we also have very little military training, whereas they, on the other hand, are elite soldiers. If one were to try to take on such a task today, this would be seen as a complete absurdity, and although we do have a mitzvah to not rely on outright miracles, and we are certainly not permitted to put ourselves in dangerous situations, however, we are also to be so careful to never ever fall to the side of Avodah Zarah, believing that the world can only work according to the laws of nature.
Because let us remind ourselves, this is the purpose of the world, to test us in emunah, in our belief, where the world is going to appear like it runs according to the laws of nature, but in truth, there is only Hashem pulling every single string. And when we look at the Chanukah candles and remind ourselves of the miracles that took place on Chanukah, and we meditate on the fact that there was only a few people who decided that they were going to rely on Hashem to such a degree that He would help them in a complete unnatural manner, because they had no other choice, and He would help the handful of them to wipe out an entire army, something completely against all the laws of nature, logic, and statistics, when we take this to heart, this can be a tremendous springboard for motivation and inspiration throughout any endeavor we might be dealing with in our lives, to remind ourselves that ein od milvado, that although usually Hashem does opt to work through the laws of nature, however, in truth, there is nothing whatsoever in the world except for Hashem.