TRANSFORM YOUR EMUNAH!

354 - Front Lines

In Hashem's great kindness, He has given us many opportunities of how to impact our lives in this world, as well as impact our future lives in the next world. One of the potent gifts Hashem has given us is the power of tehillim. Tehillim are comprised of 150 chapters that David HaMelech authored. If one studies tehillim, one will quickly realize that these are King David's personal conversations with Hashem, both through times of joy and happiness, as well as through times of sorrow and challenge, David HaMelech was in constant communication with Hashem. In addition to these words of tehillim being David HaMelech's personal and meaningful words of conversation with Hashem, these words are also imbued with a special holiness based on divine inspiration, ruach hakodesh, that David HaMelech had.
Each one of us has the constant opportunity to recite the holy and potent words of tehillim. If we were to see the results of what happens when we recite the words of tehillim, we would not be able to stop because it would be so obvious how impactful we are being on the whole world. But again, our job in this world is to internalize the belief, the emunah, specifically when we don't know and we don't see the results. Imagine for a second that there was going to be an atomic bomb on a certain country and you knew if you were to recite tehillim now for 20 minutes, you will prevent that atomic bomb from landing. Most people would go ahead with those 20 minutes, even if they're very tired, because again, you're stopping an atomic bomb from wiping out an entire country.
In the same way, imagine for a moment that the spiritual impact and result of my recitation of tehillim is going to bring about such blessing to win the war that we're going through, that no more soldiers will be killed or even injured, that anybody who's been taken into captivity will be returned home safely, and that those who have already been injured will have a complete recovery and that we will have complete victory over the enemy. The army that is fighting this war is comprised of many different segments. There are the soldiers on the front lines, then you have the cook in the kitchen who has to cook food for the soldiers, and in a sense, the soldier on the front lines who is risking his life on a constant basis can feel a much greater sense of accomplishment and purpose and doing something meaningful, being right on the front lines, fighting for his country, whereas the cook in the kitchen might feel of less purpose. Of course, we all understand that the army is a team and every segment is needed. If the cook would not be there, there would be no food for the soldiers and they would not be able to fight, and therefore, every component of the army is needed.
We might not be able to be on the front lines fighting in the army. However, if we internalize the Emunah, that the spiritual impact and power of Tehillim is what will send success to our soldiers, we will recite our Tehillim with the same dedication as those soldiers fighting on the front lines. Now again, our job in this world is specifically to believe when we don't see nor understand the results of our actions. We are taught from the Torah sources that the power of Tehillim is so great that it affects our world in ways we cannot even imagine. We all have the constant opportunity to say the words of Tehillim.

353 - 180° Turnaround

Torah commentaries teach that the distance between knowing Emunah in our heads as opposed to truly and sincerely internalizing that Emunah in our hearts is greater than the distance between heaven and earth. Most believing Jews understand that prayer to Hashem makes an impact and is certainly a worthwhile investment on our part. However, internalizing the true extent of just how powerful each word of prayer we utter creates is our life's work. Imagine for a moment that every time we would pray, we would automatically receive a million dollars. If that were the case, we would probably be praying all day because we are experiencing the results to our action of prayer. Our job and purpose in this world is specifically to believe when we don't experience and we don't see the impact of our efforts. Making efforts to internalize just how powerful every single prayer we make is will inspire us to pray with more concentration, to mean what we say, to be more sincere in our personal conversations with Hashem, and to devote more time to such a holy and potent and powerful endeavor.
There is a well-known story that took place many years ago of a man whose wife gave birth. Two weeks later, she became very seriously ill. When they visited the doctor, after he assessed the situation, he called for immediate surgery due to the urgency of the situation. The man, who lived in Bnei Brak, the hometown of the great rabbi, the Chazon Ish, decided that although the diagnosis seemed clear, he nevertheless would like to consult his rabbi, the Chazon Ish, and receive his blessing to move forward with the surgery. When the man arrived at the shul of the Chazon Ish, it was just before the time of the mincha prayers. The man went over to the rabbi, the Chazon Ish, and reported his case. He said, Rabbi, my wife gave birth two weeks ago. Now she has become ill, and after visiting the doctor, he's advised us that we need to go ahead and perform surgery immediately. However, the doctor also told us that as a result of the surgery, my wife will never be able to have any more children.
So, the rabbi, the Chazon Ish, looks at the man and says, “I'm sorry about the situation, that the prognosis is that you will not be able to have more children. However, the halacha is clear. When someone's life is in danger, you certainly are obligated to go ahead and perform the surgery, even though you will not be able to have children in the future.” And then suddenly the Chazon Ish turns around to the man and says, it's time for mincha now, and they begin to daven mincha together. After mincha, the Chazon Ish turns around to the man and says, please can you repeat your situation to me? And the man does so. The Chazon Ish says, “do not go ahead with the surgery.” The man obviously is very perplexed. The Chazon Ish was very clear before mincha that this is the law, you've got to go ahead with the surgery. It's pikuach nefesh; someone's life is at stake. However, just after mincha, the Chazon Ish had a 180 degree turn and said, you should not go ahead with the surgery.
The Chazon Ish explained himself. He said, “that's what we said before we davened mincha. But after we davened mincha and I used the opportunity to ask Hashem that your wife should not have to undergo the surgery and thereby not be able to have children in the future, everything's changed.” In the end, they did not go ahead with the surgery and against all statistics, this woman had nine children after that episode. Of course, we all have to be responsible in the way we deal with situations. And perhaps only people as great as the Chazon Ish would be able to make such a decision as in this story. However, what is certainly applicable to every one of us is the power of tefillah. Tefillah can change situations. Every single one of us has the constant opportunity of tefillah.

352 - Need Help?

The famous words in the Torah, “ein od milvado” - there is nothing else in the world except for Hashem, mean that everything in the world is completely under Hashem's control and guidance. That being the case, it's sometimes difficult to understand why we need to do anything. Because if Hashem runs the show 100% and my efforts do not make any difference, as taught by the Torah commentaries, why do I need to do anything? And the simple answer is that Hashem has commanded us that even though He does everything, we still have an obligation to do what is called hishtadlus, to make our own effort.
What is super vital to remember is, as the Mesillas Yesharim writes clearly that although we have a mitzvah, an obligation to make our own effort in whatever area that may be, we are to remember that our efforts have no effect on the final result. We do not and cannot help Hashem. Hashem runs the show exclusively. The Rambam in his 13 principles of faith writes, “He alone did everything, does everything and will do everything.” It is not a partnership together with Hashem where we are helping Him. He exclusively runs the show. When it comes to the mitzvah of hishtadlus, if one needs to make a living, of course, one's parnassah comes exclusively from Hashem, but I have a mitzvah, an obligation to make my own effort, even though that effort does not affect the final result and does not help provide for my parnassah one iota.
In the same way, if somebody is sick, the first thing to do is only turn to Hashem because again, that's all that really counts. Only He can make me better and a visit to any doctor actually, in its true essence, does absolutely nothing. However, again, I have an obligation because Hashem said so, to do hishtadlus, to go visit the doctor or take medication. However, even under the wing of hishtadlus, the Chazon Ish writes something fascinating about hishtadlus itself. He says that 50% of our obligation towards our hishtadlus is accomplished through tefillah, davening, because Hashem can send our salvation, be it parnassah, recovery from illness, the spouse one is looking for, children or whatever other area it may be. Hashem can send that salvation even without us needing to pray. In a sense, our prayers are a form of hishtadlus, of our own efforts to try to accomplish something. So says the Chazon Ish that 50% of our efforts even within hishtadlus should be directed towards tefillah.
What a tremendous opportunity we have every single day to talk to Hashem. Anything and everything that we may be going through, we can talk to Hashem about. And remember, we have an obligation to fulfill our mitzvah of hishtadlus. So, we have to do what we think will help. Visit the doctor, make an effort in business and whatever other area may be relevant. But never to forget that 50% of our efforts should be directed towards our davening, our personal conversations with Hashem.

351 - Emunah = Tefillah

The Torah teaches us in a verse about Moshe Rabbeinu, “Vayehi yadav emunah”, and his hands were emunah. And the famous commentary on the Torah, the Targum Unklus, translates the words as, “and his hands were spread out in prayer.” What the Torah calls emunah, the translation that follows is prayer. One of the most potent expressions of our belief in Hashem is praying and talking to Him. If I sincerely believe that Hashem exists, an obvious go-to is talking to Him. We need to internalize the tremendous gift that Hashem has given us, the opportunity to daven to Him in numerous ways. We have the tremendous opportunity to daven the prescribed prayers with all their holy words every single day. And doing so is a very potent expression of our emunah in Hashem. The words of the prescribed prayers were authored by very holy sages who were able to imbue these words with tremendous holiness. So, besides for their basic meaning, which is really a personal conversation with Hashem, these particular words and format and order of prayer that has been prescribed by the early great sages are particularly potent and powerful. And we should certainly capitalize on the opportunity to daven the prescribed prayers every single day.
What is important to remember whilst we are praying is to do our best to mean what we are saying. One of the great halachic authorities throughout halachic literature, the Chayei Adam, says that to pray without kavana, concentration and meaning and intention is comparable to a body without a soul. Although the words of the prayers themselves are very holy, a very important component of the prayers is to mean what we are saying. For some people, understanding the words may be easier. For others, more preparation might be necessary, such as finding time to learn the meaning of the prayers and the words of the prayers so that when we do pray, they are more meaningful and we understand more what we are saying. Besides for the prescribed prayers, however, we have the constant opportunity every moment of the day to talk to Hashem in our own words, which is also very much considered prayer.
The Chofetz Chaim, in fact, writes that the reason so much suffering was befalling the people of his time was because they only prayed the three prescribed prayers every day. But because these prayers are something that we repeatedly do day by day, he writes, we become habituated to the prayers and sometimes they become monotonous, to the point that we don't sincerely mean the prayers anymore. And therefore, says the Chofetz Chaim, multiple times a day a person should talk to Hashem in their own words because the nature of our own personal prayer is to be much more sincere and real. What a privilege! We have the opportunity every single day both to pray the prescribed prayers as well as to talk to Hashem in our own words.

350 - Torah Study (Part-8)

We know that the Torah sources refer to Hashem and the Torah as one. One of the most potent things that we can do in our endeavor to connect to Hashem is to learn Torah. The Gemara, as outlined by the Shulchan Aruch, the Code of Jewish Law, also teaches us that even if one does not have this high motive of just connecting to Hashem and learning the Torah just because He commanded us to, even if one is learning for some personal motive to some degree, for example, one feels that they will receive more honor from other people if they know more Torah, or for whatever other similar personal agenda, nevertheless, we are still encouraged to learn the Torah even for the wrong reason, because eventually we will come to learning the Torah for the right reason.
Of course, ideally, we aim to learn the Torah for the absolute right reason, just to connect to Hashem. I once came across a great analogy that helps digest this concept. There was an individual who bought a microwave oven from an electronic store. Before leaving the store, the individual asked the store owner to please give him a good overview of how to work this microwave with all its details. After his crash course, the microwave was packed away in the box and the individual went home. When he pulled out the microwave, he started doing exactly what the shop owner had showed him, but nevertheless, he could not get the microwave to work. Because of that, he returned to the store and said to the store owner, I don't understand. I am doing everything you told me, but I can't get this microwave to work. There must be a fault in the machine. And the store owner says to him, “please show me what you're doing, and let's try work it out”. So, the man touches all the buttons to make the microwave work, and he does everything right, but it still doesn't work. And the store owner says, you've done everything right, but you've just forgotten one thing: You forgot to plug in the machine.
When we learn Torah, even if we are not plugged in in that connection with Hashem, we are still advised to learn the Torah because the potency of Torah is so strong that eventually it will lead us to be able to be plugged in and connect to Hashem in the right way. However, even today, we can all make our effort to bridge that gap of Torah learning and connection with Hashem, and again, the answer to all questions and the solution to all problems. We all have the opportunity to talk to Hashem. In fact, there is a prescribed prayer that the Halacha outlines for us to say before we learn Torah and after we learn Torah. And in that prayer, we pray to Hashem for success in our Torah learning beforehand, and we thank Hashem thereafter for the Torah learning and success that He gave us in our Torah endeavor.
In addition to those prescribed prayers, we all have the opportunity on a constant basis to say, “Master of the universe, Hashem, my Father, I am currently about to learn Torah. I am going to try my best to understand the wisdom in Your true perspective, in the only true perspective that exists. But Hashem, I ask You, sometimes I get involved in the technical details, which I am supposed to, because that is the mitzvah of Torah learning. But Hashem, sometimes it's difficult to bridge the gap and feel a strong connection to You, as if we're bonding together as a result of my Torah learning. Please, Hashem, help me to be plugged in. Help me to really and truly connect to You and feel that connection to You whilst I am learning Your Torah.“ What a privilege we each have on a constant basis to learn Hashem's Torah and to connect with Hashem.

349 - Torah Study (Part-7)

We've learned many times the incredible, potent value of Torah learning. There is no question that the more involved we are in Torah learning, the more we come closer to HaShem, because we are taught in Torah literature that HaShem and the Torah are in essence one and the same. In a sense, the closest that we can get to HaShem is when we take the Torah and delve into it and learn it to the best of our abilities. Of course, each one of us in our own right ought to make our maximum effort in our personal Torah study. However, the Shulchan Aruch, the code of Jewish law, codifies what one is to do if one is limited in their time that they are able to dedicate to Torah study.
The Shulchan Aruch codifies the well-known concept known as Yisaschar Zevulun. The Torah records that of the twelve tribes, the tribe of Yisaschar was completely devoted to the mitzvah of Torah learning, but of course, in order to do so, they also needed to have some sort of plan where they would be able to receive their sustenance to be able to provide for their families. An arrangement was made where the tribe of Zevulun committed to financially supporting the tribe of Yisachar and an official agreement was made that while the two tribes would share the financial benefits of Zevulun's work, in the same way the two tribes would share the spiritual benefits and reward that will be due because of the Torah learning of Yisaschar.
Of course, even if we have partnered with somebody else, we are all obligated on our own part to commit to our maximum degree to delve into the Torah with whatever time Hashem has given us available. Whilst at the same time, it is worthwhile to remember this investment that Hashem has given us - the opportunity to reap the benefits and rewards of Torah study, even if we ourselves are unable to devote ourselves completely to Torah study. Just to appreciate how valuable Torah study really is, in the same passage that the Shulchan Aruch records this arrangement that can be made between two people, where one says, I will be the supporter and the other says, I will be the one who will devote myself to Torah study - we will share the financial benefits as well as the spiritual benefits. In the same passage, the Shulchan Aruch records that this can only be done for a future project. One can make an arrangement that for the future, we will share the rewards for the Torah in exchange for sharing financial benefit together. However, if one has already learnt some Torah and another individual comes over and says, “I am prepared to pay you $10 million just for the reward of one word that you ever said in your Torah learning, we are absolutely prohibited from selling our reward even for all the money in the world.
And that is because the value of Torah learning is so great that all the money in the world cannot buy even one word. As discussed many times, our job in this world is to believe specifically when we don't see, when we don't understand. When two people come together and make an agreement, the one will contribute the spiritual benefits that the Torah gives and the other will contribute the financial benefits to be split between the two, oftentimes, it will be a lot easier for us to relate to the amazing kindness that the financial provider in this partnership is doing for both of them. Whereas the individual who's learning Torah, in a sense, sometimes it feels like he's reaping financial benefits and not necessarily contributing as much as the other individual.
Let us remember that our job in this world is to believe specifically when we don't see, to follow Hashem's perspective. We cannot see Hashem's perspective with our own eyes. We are obligated to believe Hashem's perspective. What a privilege each one of us has to constantly make an effort to grow in our personal Torah learning. And at the same time, Hashem has also given us another way in addition to our personal learning, that we are able to partner with others and also reap the benefits together.

348 - Torah Study (Part-6)

The information that is found in the Torah is so much that sometimes it can be overwhelming. How am I supposed to learn all of the information in the Torah? Even if somebody is completely dedicated to Torah, it is almost an impossibility to get to know all of the different diverse areas of the Torah. Certainly, for most of us who are limited, it can be overwhelming. Again, here we have Hashem's perspective guiding us as to how we are to lead our lives. Although we are taught the incredible value and importance of Torah learning, at the same time Hashem teaches us in a Mishna, in Pirkei Avos, that we are not obligated to completely finish our study of Torah learning. That is an impossibility. However, the same Mishna tells us that although we are not obligated to complete every area of Torah, we are nevertheless to make our maximum effort to do the most that we can. When we meet our Creator at the end of 120 years, the question that we will be asked will not be, did you finish the Torah from cover to cover, including all of the Rabbinic literature and everything that it covers. The question will be, did you make your maximum effort?
 
One might argue that one of the biggest challenges in Torah learning is the language barrier. For many people, Torah terminology can be difficult, especially if one is not Hebrew speaking and especially if one has not had a significant background in Torah education. We are so privileged in today's day and age that almost everything is available in English. If one is interested in a particular topic, there are thousands of books, thousands of online resources that offer guidance at all levels, even for one who has had no Torah background. In times of old, it was only the absolute elite that had the privilege to have access to all the areas of the Torah. Because of the difficult language barrier, most people were unable to delve into many areas of Torah. In today's day and age, in a sense, there is no excuse. When we reach our Maker one day, we cannot say, “look, there was a language barrier and it was difficult for me to learn”, because almost everything is available to us in English.
 
Something else worth discussing is, because of our limited time, of course we have to choose which areas of Torah we are to focus on. There is a whole section in the Shulchan Aruch, in the Code of Jewish Law, which is devoted to the laws of Torah learning, which outlines many of these details. Some points worth mentioning are that one of the highest priorities in Torah learning of every individual is to learn the practical laws, because again, if we have not learned the practical laws, we will not be able to fulfill the mitzvos in the correct way. We are also obligated to make efforts in the study of character development, with the many books to choose from in today's day and age. And of course, one of the highest, as we've mentioned many times, is constant inspiration about emunah, our belief in Hashem.
 
The Gemara also tells us that one of the main areas a person should focus their Torah learning on is in an area that they enjoy, because when we enjoy something, we will be motivated to continue that venture, as opposed to if we constantly are involved in something boring, it would be very difficult to keep that practice up. How do I know which is going to be the area that is going to speak to me the most, that will excite me? And even if I do already know which area of Torah I should focus on, how do I find the right platform, online, in a book, or wherever it may be, to guide me in my learning? Although there is so much Torah literature available today, I may connect to one particular Torah educator more than another. How am I to go about finding exactly what will be best for me? Again, the answer to all questions: Talk to Hashem.

347 - Torah Study (Part-5)

Human nature is to appreciate things that we understand to have value and be important, much more than things we are just told to believe are important, but are sometimes difficult to relate to and difficult to see their true value and importance. After one performs the tremendous mitzvah of visiting a sick person, and the sick person thereafter tells you, “you just made my day, I didn't feel like living on anymore, but since you came, you put such a deep smile on my face, that you've given me a new drive for life.” After performing such a mitzvah, one usually feels quite accomplished and good about themselves because we've done something truly meaningful. Whereas, when one listens to a shiur, or one sits down to learn a piece of Torah, many times one does not feel that same sense of accomplishment. And again, the reason for that is because we don't see the value of our Torah learning. We are supposed to believe, to have emunah, that our Torah learning is so vitally important, to the point that the Mishnah tells us the value of Torah learning equals the value of all 613 mitzvahs put together.
One of the things that helps us to build our emunah is when we see different Torah sources that outline to us what exactly Hashem's perspective is. The Gemara tells us that when a person is undergoing some form of suffering, the first mode of response should be to introspect and think about if there has been something perhaps that we have done wrong, that maybe because of that, Hashem is sending us a reminder to correct our ways. The Gemara then continues and says, if a person did introspect and didn't find anything in particular that they feel Hashem might be communicating to them about, to try to mend their ways in that particular area, the next step is to attribute the reason for Hashem sending us this suffering because of the sin of bittul Torah, of wasting time and not learning Torah when we could have.
The sin of bittul Torah is clearly placed very high on the scale of Hashem's perspective of what is important to the point that the Gemara is teaching us: if you don't see any other particular area for Hashem talking to you, it is probably because we have not been as careful as we could with the mitzvah of learning Torah. The Gemara elsewhere also tells us that one of the first questions we will be asked when we meet our Creator after 120 years is, did you set aside time for Torah learning? This passage reveals to us a fundamental concept of how Hashem's perspective works. When we meet our Creator one day, He will not ask us, why weren't you the greatest sage of the generation? However, He will ask us, did you set aside time to learn Torah to your maximum capacity? Both in quantity and quality, we will be asked if we made our maximum effort.
So, if somebody has not had the privilege to have many years of Torah background to be able to learn Torah independently, of course one is not then expected to learn passages in Torah which one needs to be an independent learner for. And when one meets Hashem after 120 years, that will not be part of the equation. And in the same way, someone whose path to life is that Hashem has given them numerous hours a day available to learn Torah, when they meet their Creator one day, their question will be based on how many hours were available to them. But someone who had a very minimal amount of time available and really made their maximum effort to learn Torah every day, even if it's one passage and that's all they were able to achieve, but that was their maximum, they will receive a hundred percent on their score on this question. Torah learning is one of the cornerstones of Judaism. It is not about how much we learn or how successful we are being in what other people might define as success. Hashem's true question is going to be, did you do your best?

346 - Torah Study (Part-4)

The Code of Jewish Law outlines that all people, men, women and children, are obligated in the pursuit of Torah learning. Women have a mitzvah to learn and master all the areas of Torah that are related to the practical fulfilment of the mitzvos, as well as areas that focus on the development and improvement of our character traits, as well as the areas of Torah that talk about how to bring us closer to Hashem, how to derive inspiration, to fear and love Hashem more, how to live with more emunah, faith, on a constant basis.
Men, of course, are obligated in the same way as women to learn about the performance of the practical mitzvos and make efforts in character development to seek inspiration, our fear of Hashem, our love of Hashem, and of course growth in our emunah and our personal relationship with Hashem, whilst at the same time there is an additional mitzvah, commandment, for men to constantly be involved in Torah, meaning to say, at any given opportunity where there is an extra moment, there is a commandment for a man to delve into Torah, even if in theory he knows the entire Torah already.
We've discussed many times that the Torah commentaries teach us that the purpose of our existence is to have emunah, to believe, specifically to believe when we don't see, we don't know, we don't understand. We read a mishnah every morning as part of the morning prayers that says that the value of Torah learning is equal to all 613 mitzvahs put together. When one sits down and learns Torah to the best of their abilities, it doesn't always feel as inspiring as if one has given a huge sum of money to charity or performed some other act of kindness. However, the Torah is teaching us the true perspective. Torah learning is so powerful, even when we don't feel inspired from it, that it is equal to all 613 mitzvahs put together.
Our job is to internalize that belief. One might ask, seeing as Torah learning is so great, perhaps one should not spend their time on any other mitzvos and just learn Torah the entire day. In theory, that would make sense. As mentioned, we have a mitzvah to learn Torah at any available opportunity, and seeing as the value of Torah learning is equal to all 613 mitzvahs put together, it would make sense that the most ideal course would be for me to be involved in Torah learning as much as possible, even at the expense of missing out on doing other mitzvahs. Again, there are always different ways to look at anything, it all depends on perspective, but when we want the truth, the only place to look is the Torah.
The code of Jewish law, the Shulchan Aruch, outlines exactly what to do. When there is a mitzvah that can be taken care of by someone else, then the law is that it would be better for me to continue my Torah learning and not interrupt in order to go fulfill that mitzvah. So, let's say I'm currently learning Torah and I notice from the corner of my eye that there's somebody who is feeling very upset. We know one of the greatest mitzvos is to cheer somebody up. Now let's say I see that next to this person who is feeling down, a very good friend of his is sitting there, and if I continue to learn Torah, that very good friend will go and cheer up the individual who's feeling sad. If that would be the case, I would be exempt from that mitzvah, and the right thing to do would be to continue to learn Torah and not interrupt to perform that mitzvah. However, let's say that that individual that is feeling down has a special close bond with me, and I know that I am the only one who is in a position to cheer him up, then the Torah commands us that we are obligated to stop learning Torah and go perform that mitzvah, because this is now a mitzvah that cannot be performed by anyone else. Again, whether we understand the perspective or not, if we are following the guidance of the Torah, we are for sure on the right track. We are so privileged to have been given Hashem's perspective, the Torah.

345 - Torah Study (Part-3)

We are so privileged to have received the Torah from Hashem, the only perspective that can be absolute truth. We know from many Torah sources that the Torah itself is considered the sweetest item in the world. But what am I supposed to do if I just don't feel the sweetness of Torah? I might believe the fact that if the Torah and Hashem's perspective tells me that the Torah is greater than anything else in the world, and sweeter than anything else in the world, that that is of course true. However, what if I don't experience Torah that way? When I open up a book, I fall asleep, I'm not so interested in hearing a lecture. So, what does one do? As we've discussed many times, the solution to all problems, always, step number one. If I believe that Hashem exists in the world, and I believe that He can hear my voice, and He is interested in what I have to say and, in my life, the most basic expression of our belief in Hashem and His existence is to talk to Him.
“Master of the universe, Hashem my Father, I know that you have taught us that Torah is the sweetest possible item in the world. Hashem, I want to believe that with my full heart. But the truth of the matter is that when I learn Torah, I don't feel that excitement. In fact, a lot of the time, I find many areas of the Torah to be quite boring, and when I have to make a choice between learning Torah or spending some extra time doing something on my phone or something else, much of the time, I choose to do the other option rather than learn Torah because it's hard for me to learn Torah. Hashem my Father, I know that the truth of the matter is that if you teach me in so many Torah sources that Torah is the sweetest item in the world, and this is the most important area where we should be investing our time and energy. Please Hashem, I'm asking you with all my heart, please, can you make the Torah sweet in my heart. Please Hashem, can you help me that I should find the Torah exciting and not boring? Hashem, I know you can help me in a second. I know that sometimes I've experienced certain areas of Torah which have excited me and I have been very interested in and I have found to be sweet, whereas other areas of Torah I have found to be boring. How do I know, Hashem, to find the right areas which will speak to me and excite me the most?
Please Hashem, guide me to those areas of Torah. Guide me to hear lectures or to find the right books of those particular areas that I will find to be sweet and meaningful for me. And Master of the Universe, you know that a lot of the time learning Torah is not easy for me. I might not have had a background in Torah education, or even if I have, many areas of Torah might be difficult. Please, Master of the Universe, you are the one, Hashem, who created the Torah. Please, Hashem, can you help me to feel that sweetness and to be so successful in my Torah learning? Thank you, Hashem, for the gift of the Torah.”