263 - Olam Haba (Part-7)

We've been discussing the process of what the Torah authorities outline to us happens after we leave this world. As discussed, after one dies and departs from this world, one needs to go through a cleansing process called chibbut hakever, where there is some form of suffering that one needs to experience in one's burial place. And as the Torah authorities outline to us, there are many levels of what that pain and suffering might be, dependent on the severity and extent of our sins.

Again, let us remind ourselves that the only reason Hashem created the world in the first place is just to give us pleasure, and God forbid, never was there an objective in mind to punish us, just for the sake of punishing us. But if we have committed sins, we do need to be cleansed. And depending on the severity and magnitude of our sins will be the extent of how hard we will need to be scrubbed to be cleansed. But again, let us remind ourselves, this is not a fairy tale for children that one can make jokes about. The Torah commentaries discuss that one moment of suffering after we die is much greater than any atrocity that we might have experienced or even heard about, and imagine that terrible act, continuing for 120 years without a break; one moment of suffering after we depart from this world is much worse than that. 

But we are so privileged to have been given such a tremendous gift from Hashem, called teshuva, that as we are taught, it doesn't matter what one has already committed, there is the possibility to repent for anything and everything. And let us remind ourselves of what the Gemara says, that if we truly repent out of love for Hashem, for even the greatest of sins that we might have committed, not only are those sins erased from our record, but they actually change to become mitzvos, and we now get points for those aveiros that we might have committed, because Hashem in His great kindness is so proud of us for repenting for those sins that He actually changes them to be considered mitzvos. 

Of course, there are many levels of what it means to do teshuva. One might repent for 10 seconds and one might spend 3 hours repenting about a certain act, and the more serious we might feel that we have committed a certain act, the more time we might be required to fully repent. But let us remind ourselves of what many Torah commentaries teach, that although there are many levels for repentance, but it is certainly invaluable beyond any words that we could be able to describe, to even take a few moments to just contemplate on an avarice that we might have committed. The basic steps of teshuva are to take a few moments and acknowledge the transgression that I committed, and express to Hashem my regret for having done so. And if there is something practical to do right now to rectify what has been done, such as if I have stolen money and the like, then certainly to go ahead and return that money. And thereafter, to say to Hashem that I am going to try my best in the future not to commit this transgression again, and of course to do one's best in the future. 

Sometimes, some transgressions are so difficult for us to stay away from that we almost feel insincere to do teshuva and repent for these things. As we are taught from the Torah commentaries, this is very much the wrong approach, because Hashem understands that we are limited by our human nature, and the fact that we are not able to repent in a way that we are sure that we will never come back to this sin is no reason for us not to repent, God forbid. But exactly the opposite. We are able to say, "Hashem, please help me that I shouldn't commit this sin again. But the truth of the matter is that, Hashem, I know I'm going to come back to speaking Lashon Horah probably tomorrow again. And although I want to repent for this act, I'm concerned that I'm being insincere. Please Hashem, help me that I shouldn't speak badly about other people tomorrow, and my repentance should be considered sincere in Your eyes." And again, if this is the best that I can do, even though I know I might even probably commit this transgression tomorrow, but the fact that I have even asked Hashem to help me is a tremendous, tremendous level. 

And similarly, if a woman got dressed in an immodest manner, and perhaps was looked at inappropriately by others, she might say, "Hashem, I'm really sorry for not following Your commandments and dressing immodestly. I regret what I did, and I'm going to try my best from tomorrow to dress in a much more modest manner, the best that I can. But at the same time, Hashem, You know that it is really hard for me, from the way I have been brought up and the way I'm accustomed to dress in a certain way. Please, can You help me to be able to dress in the way that Your Torah prescribes." And again, even though I know that I might not be able to live up to the standard, but if I am doing the best that I can, and just asking Hashem to help me, that is certainly extremely valuable in Hashem's eyes, and will work wonders for us, for our eternal place in Olam Haba.