193 - The Deciding Factor

As we've discussed many times, our ultimate purpose and focus in this world is to make our maximum effort to grow in our emunah and bitachon. We mentioned the Gemara in Sota 48b, which states that a person who only has sufficient provisions for just today is called on to not feel anxious about what's going to happen because just like Hashem has come through for me so many times in the past, so too He'll come through for me tomorrow. 

We need to remind ourselves of the tremendous gifts that Hashem gives us on a constant basis. If one were to be blind for one day and have a prognosis that this is going to continue for the entire next year without being able to see anything for an entire year, how much money would a person be prepared to pay just to be able to regain their eyesight for this year? Everyone I've discussed this question with has replied that they would pay everything that they have, they'd be prepared to sell their house, sell their belongings and anything they might own just to regain their eyesight, even if it's just for a one-year period. Most of us have been given the privilege to be able to see 24 hours a day with an automatic cleaning system, without pain. 

When we are called on to make our maximum effort to apply the values of emunah in a practical way, and a challenge has presented itself, and in our example from this passage in the Gemara, I don't know where I'm going to get my future provisions from; although my instinctive response might be to feel anxious, but if I am able to make an effort to stop and think about all the many things that Hashem has given me; in the countless ways that He's come through for me; how many times did He give me a meal in the past? How many days have I lived with fantastic eyesight? How many times have I been able to go to the bathroom and relieve myself without pain? 

In a sense, the principles of emunah are quite easy and intuitive to internalize when we become more in touch with the world of emunah. We owe the world to Hashem. Hashem comes through for us 24 hours a day in so many areas, and sometimes just because that is the norm that He does for so many people, we fail to acknowledge that this is a gift from Hashem's doing, that He has personally orchestrated to every single one of us. When we make an effort to think about all the areas that Hashem does come through for us in, besides for being appreciative and grateful to Hashem for the many gifts and areas that He's come through for us, which is a mitzvah unto itself, it is also a springboard for inspiration and motivation to be able to have faith that in the future everything is going to work out just perfectly according to Hashem's plans, and there is no reason to feel anxiety, because just like Hashem's come through for me in so many ways in the past, and just like right now He's the one who's helping me to see and to go to the bathroom and the many other million things, so too He will come through for me in this area too. He is the only one who can help me in this predicament that I am experiencing. 

Again, emunah is not something that we can just pick up a book or press a button and suddenly we will be completely transformed. It is our life's work and the more effort that we make to expose ourselves to the Torah concepts and internalize them and think about the Torah ideas, Hashem's perspective, of how to live a life of emunah, the more growth we will achieve, which is ultimately all Hashem expects from us. The Chofetz Chaim in Machaneh Yisrael, part 3, writes, "The foremost consideration of how much reward we will receive in the time of redemption, is based on how much emunah we lived with. If we are sincere in our belief, and regularly reflect on the knowledge, that every detail that transpires in our lives is orchestarted by Hashem and is always for our best, our reward in the future will be exeedengly great, filled with goodness." Here is another Torah passage we are reading from the Chofetz Chaim, one of the greatest Jews ever to live, who is again teaching us that the foremost consideration, how Hashem will judge us in the time of the future, will be based on how much emunah we lived with.