147 - Complaints Department

We learned a very fundamental and important concept from the Gemara, which teaches us that it is actually considered a sin to be fearful of circumstance and individuals. The more we internalize ein od milvado, that there is no other power in the world outside of Hashem, and v'hu levado asa veoseh veyaaseh l'chol hamaasim - He Hashem exclusively orchestrates every happening down to the most minor detail throughout all of our lives, the more we internalize these concepts, the more we will get closer to living lives free of fear.

In the above-quoted episode from the Talmud, where the sage reprimanded the student for being fearful and told him off that that is considered a sin by quoting a verse which dictates so, the student responded back, quoting a different verse which seems to imply that it is actually a commendable thing to do, to feel feelings of fear. The sage then responded back to the student, explaining how to reconcile these two verses. The one verse which states clearly that it is a sin to be fearful is referring to the idea that we've been discussing, that we are to make every effort in growing in our emunah and bitachon, and by doing so, we will be led to living lives free of fear and worry, because it will be clear to us, both intellectually and beezrat Hashem also, on a deeper level emotionally, that Hashem exclusively runs every single detail, and there is no reason to fear anything else.

And the other verse which does clearly indicate that it is a good thing to be fearful, explained the sage, is referring to matters of the Torah and mitzvahs. Certainly, we should be very fearful of transgressing any of Hashem's commandments and all the repercussions that we are taught that that entails. And when we have already committed a transgression, it is also appropriate to now be fearful about the consequences in store for us, and by doing so, that can actually be a springboard to motivate me to repent for the transgression. And as the Gemara teaches, that if one repents sincerely and out of love for Hashem, that transgression actually turns into a mitzvah to our credit in our eternal bank account. 

The same piece in the Talmud then goes on to say that there was another individual who was groaning and complaining about a certain situation, and this individual was told off by the sages for groaning and complaining. And in fact, the Gemara says that when one groans and complains, that itself is the catalyst that brings suffering upon oneself.

"Thank you, Hashem, for teaching me that I need not fear anyone nor anything because You are exclusively running every single detail in my life. And at the same time, thank you, Hashem, for teaching me that it is appropriate and commendable to fear sin and its consequences. And thank you, Hashem, also for teaching me that not only is groaning and complaining about my situation that You've presented me, a lack of my emunah and bitachon, trusting that You would only send me what is best for me, but groaning and complaining itself is the catalyst that will bring me more suffering to my life. Hashem, You and I know exactly what I'm going through, and I'm already struggling in this situation, but at the same time, please help me to be inspired, to internalize that You can and will only always do what is good for me, and there is never ever reason for me to complain. Please help me to internalize, Hashem, that You are with me every single moment of my life."