126 - The Real World

We've been discussing how one of the highest forms of expressing our emunah, belief in HaShem, in a practical way, is to talk to HaShem in our own personal words. And at the same time, how do we deal with the reality that it can be difficult to talk to HaShem, because HaShem is not seen nor heard. And ultimately it comes down to growing more in our emunah, because the more we believe He is there, the more real and obvious it will become to us to take our talking to Him seriously. 

On the other hand, the more we talk to HaShem, the more we are able to grow in our emunah, because again, the solution to all problems is reaching out to the source of all, to our Creator. So on the one hand, if we believe more, we will talk more, because we know He is there, and we know He is the only one who can help us. And it's actually absurd to explore other avenues over and above our Creator. But to sincerely internalize this belief is our life's work, and has countless levels. And at the same time, the solution to all problems, always, is to ask HaShem for help. And in this particular area, the problem might be, "I would like to ideally believe more, that HaShem is listening, and sincerely feel the emunah more. However, I don't." So how do I deal with this problem? As mentioned many times, there might be other things we can also do. We can certainly seek inspiration, and perhaps other things that might help us grow in our emunah. But ultimately, over and above everything else, the solution to all problems is to go to the Creator Himself and ask Him to help me in this challenge. 

"HaShem, my Father, thank you so much for guiding me towards living a life where I am trying my best to follow the path of emunah. It is such a gift to be able to explore your true perspective, what the Torah teaches us about how to live a true life, and not a life of an imaginary, fake world. This is the real world, the world of emunah. I am trying so hard to grow in my emunah, be it by seeking inspiration, by learning books about emunah, or whatever else. And of course, this being my life's work, HaShem, it is sometimes difficult. I might sometimes have good days in my emunah, and sometimes I drop. And that's okay, because you made me a human being, and you don't expect me to be more than my maximum capacity. And I've also learned about the importance of speaking to you. And in fact, it is so obvious that if you are there, you would want me to have a personal relationship with you, and what an opportunity I have to be able to have a personal relationship with you. Nevertheless, when my emunah is strong, HaShem, then I am able to reach out to you and talk with sincerity, and perhaps even for longer periods, without difficulty, because I actually know that you're listening to me. But when my emunah is feeling shaky, the truth is that it's so difficult to talk to you, HaShem, because I'm struggling to believe that you're there listening to me, even if in theory I know it, I don't really feel it and it's difficult to do something you only know in theory, with passion, meaning, and for a long time. And therefore, I'm asking you, HaShem, help me, please, to grow more in my emunah, to believe that you are listening to me. And perhaps in return, what I could do for you is make a commitment, because although I might not feel the constant inspiration to want to talk to you with dedication and motivation and for long periods, something I can do is to make a commitment of a certain amount of time that I will talk to you every single day, regardless of how I feel. Because I know that if you see me making a commitment from my side, even when I'm feeling uninspired, you from your side could in turn build my emunah and help me to be motivated to what the basic and simple truth is. Thank you, HaShem, for teaching me that you are listening to me and for the gift to talk to you about anything and everything, whenever and wherever I choose to."