TRANSFORM YOUR EMUNAH!

363 - To Truly Give

We learned in the Mishnah in Pirkei Avos that the world stands on three things, Torah, Avoda and Gemillus Chassadim. Gemillus Chassadim refers to acts of kindness. So important is it to perform acts of kindness that that is considered one of the pillars that keeps the world going. We all have many opportunities on a daily basis to fulfill this tremendous mitzvah of Gemillus Chassadim, acts of kindness that upholds the entire world. Just giving another individual a smile or sending somebody a message that brings positivity into their lives is a fulfillment of this tremendous mitzvah. Of course, giving charity is one branch of the mitzvah of Gemillus Chassadim. If Hashem in His Torah is teaching us that the mitzvah of Tzedakah, one of the highest ways to perform the mitzvah of Gemillus Chassadim, is considered to be one of the pillars of the world, there is no question that that is the truth. We believe it even if we don't see or experience that truth.
It is interesting to point out that when somebody gives charity to a poor individual, an observer would usually credit the donor as the righteous individual in the situation, because they are helping out the poor individual, and the poor individual is just receiving a gift. If we were to follow our own line of thinking, that would perhaps be the way we would view the situation. However, we are so privileged to not have to be misled to view situations by perspectives that can be mistaken and wrong. The Zohar HaKadosh, one of the holy books of the Torah, teaches us that in actual fact when a poor individual receives money from someone who is donating to them, in actual fact the poor individual is giving much more to the rich individual than the other way around. Although counterintuitive, again, we don't see the true impact of our actions in this world. We have to believe it. In fact, we will only see what actually truly took place through the absolute lens of truth in the next world, although I might have helped this individual tremendously in a financial way. Nevertheless, the spiritual blessing which I am now to receive is much greater than anything financial can buy.
And in the same way, the Zohar states elsewhere that when Hashem loves an individual, He sends them a poor person their way. Because again, in our perspective, one might think, I don't really want to be bothered by somebody to have to give them charity, whereas in Hashem's perspective, He understands that the greatest gift in the world, much greater than any money can buy, is the opportunity to perform the mitzvah of giving tzedakah to the point that the Zohar says that if Hashem loves you, He will send you a poor person an opportunity to perform the mitzvah of tzedakah.
“Thank you, Hashem, for the opportunity to perform this incredible mitzvah that upholds the entire world of Gemilus Chasadim. Sometimes it might be so easy, as easy as giving somebody a smile or sending a message, and at other times, giving charity or other forms of kindness. Hashem, please help me to internalize the truth, your true perspective, that when I give charity to somebody, I am gaining much more than they are gaining from my financial benefit. I don't see that with my eyes, Hashem, as you know, because you created me to exist in this world where my eyes do not see through the lens of truth. However, Hashem, I beg you, please help me to be able to believe in what you tell me. Thank you Hashem for the incredible pillar of Gemilus Chasadim.”

362 - It's All About YOU

The Mishnah in Pirkei Avos teaches us that the world stands on three things, Torah, Avoda and Gemillus Chassadim. We've learned many times the tremendous potency of Torah learning and how we are taught that the value of Torah learning is on par with all 613 mitzvahs put together and many other powerful fruits that we bear from Torah learning. The second pillar that the Mishnah says upholds the entire world is Avoda. The commentaries explain that in today's times Avoda refers to prayer to Hashem. It is so important to tap into this incredible opportunity and responsibility that each one of us has to pray to Hashem. This is one of the pillars that keeps the world going.
In addition to talking to Hashem and praying for our own personal needs, it is a mitzvah to daven for other people's needs. The Gemara states that if I know somebody else is going through some form of suffering and I neglect my responsibility and ability to pray for them, I am classified as a sinner. Let us digest these words from the Gemara. It's not just an added act of kindness to daven and pray for somebody else who is suffering. It is our responsibility and obligation to the point that if we know somebody else is suffering and we do not daven for them, we are considered a sinner. In the same way, one of the leading Torah sages of the previous generation, Rav Moshe Feinstein, writes that even if we do not believe ourselves to be righteous people necessarily, nevertheless, if we know somebody else is enduring some form of suffering, we are absolutely obligated to pray on their behalf. And he explains the reason for this is because we do not understand the workings of heaven. It could be that for whatever reason, my prayer is the one that will be answered. Even though I might not be the righteous individual, in the heavenly calculations which are obviously beyond our understanding, the other righteous individuals may not have the power and license to help out with their prayers in this situation, whereas me, even though I might be committing many sins in other areas, nevertheless, if I pray, it could be that my prayer has the power to help out this individual.
Let us also remember that the Gemara states elsewhere that when I pray for somebody else, I actually receive my salvation first. Of course, our main intention in praying for somebody else should not be because we are only selfishly thinking about receiving our own salvation in return. However, as a fringe benefit to give us inspiration, it is important to remember that the Gemara tells us as a fact that when we pray for somebody else, we will be answered first. Besides for the three prescribed prayers that we have the opportunity to pray every single day, every single one of us has the constant opportunity to pray to Hashem in our own words. Of course, it is important to pray about our own needs too but let us not neglect our responsibility to care about one another and pray for each other's needs.

361 - It's All About ME

We know that the Sefer Torah is comprised of 600,000 letters, and the law is that if even one letter is either missing or damaged, the entire Sefer Torah is considered to be invalid and unusable. In the same vein, we are taught by Torah commentaries that there are 600,000 Jewish souls that exist. Now of course, there are many more than 600,000 Jews in the world, however we are taught that different parts of the same soul may be embodied by numerous different people. But in essence, in its source, there are 600,000 neshamos - souls. And Torah commentaries explain the connection between these two ideas, that just like by a Sefer Torah, if just one letter is damaged, that renders the entire Sefer Torah to be invalid in the same way when it comes to the Jewish people as a whole, if just one of those souls is damaged, in a sense, the entire Jewish nation is considered to be invalid.
This idea can inspire us on two fronts; one, when we relate to other people, to realize that it doesn't matter how great the rest of the Jewish nation might be doing or succeeding, if one particular soul is missing or damaged, that affects the entire nation in an atomic way. The respect and the love that we ought to have for every single soul and person is much easier to appreciate when we realize that we are all so necessary. And in the same vein, for every single one of us to remember as an individual that not only have we been given an opportunity to live a life of Hashem's perspective with the Torah as a Jew, but we also have tremendous responsibility to play our part, because if we do not play our part, the entire nation is affected in an atomic way.
Let us remember the important words from the Talmud that teach every single individual is obligated to believe that the entire world was created just for me. To digest that, all the millions of people that were created in the world, they're there just for my story. All the billions of dollars invested into all the different ventures in the world, it's all there just for me. The sun, moon, stars, planets, everything. One may say, but how can that make sense? We don't understand Hashem's workings of anything of how it can make sense. But if the Gemara tells us that everybody is obligated to believe that the entire world was created just for me, of course, if we are living a life of Emunah, we believe that.
“Thank you, Hashem, for the incredible opportunity that you've given me to be a Jew. Every single moment of my life has the potential to be meaningful, to connect to you, to perform your mitzvahs, to do acts of kindness. Thank you, Hashem, for teaching me that the level of pleasure that we experience in this world of your true kindness is so small in comparison to what is waiting for us in the next world. What an incredible opportunity. Thank you Hashem for making me part of this nation. And Hashem, at the same time, I ask you to help me internalize the responsibility that I have. If you have put me in this world, and I am still alive today, it must be that there is some important role that only I can play. Please Hashem, help me to find my potential and fulfill it to its highest. Thank you, Hashem, for the incredible opportunity and responsibility of being a Jew.”

360 - Defining Success

The Gemara recounts an episode where one of the rabbis had a near-death experience. He was considered to be clinically dead, and thereafter his soul returned back to his body, coming back to life. The Gemara recounts that when this sage was asked what he experienced during this episode, the sage responded that he saw the next world, the world where everything is upside down from this world. He explained further that many of the people which are considered to be success stories in this were considered to be the paupers in the next world, and many of those that seemed to be unsuccessful in this world were the true success stories in the world of truth.
We need to remind ourselves that in Torah literature, this world is called a world of untruth, because we are not able to see via the lens of truth in this world. If I were to escort a blind man down a few roads, having to cross the street when the robot turns green, having to be careful not to stumble over the items and people that might be obstructing our way, the blind man cannot see where he is going; the only reason he knows where to go is because he believes that I am taking him to his desired destination. We need to remember that in this world, we are all considered to be like the blind man. We do not see where we are going, we can only believe that we are being taken to our desired destination. One day in the next world, our eyes will be open and we will see through the perspective of absolute truth.
“Hashem, my Father, I know that You created me with Your main objective for me to have emunah, belief in You. I have been taught that this world is a world of lies, very often upside down to the true perspective of what we will experience in the next world. But I know, Hashem, that I am unable to experience or see the truth of that in this world. Hashem, it is so hard to hang on to this belief when everything else in this world seems to go against so many of the values of emunah. Please, Hashem, can You help me grow in my emunah and bring me to a place that I truly believe that everything that happens in the world is only for the best and can only be for the best, because if You are sending it to me, there is no question that You would only do good for me, even though I have no understanding and I cannot see why that is best for me.
And at the same time, Hashem, please help me not to be misled by what is termed success in this upside-down world. Everything in this world that we live in, Hashem, in a sense is giving fuel to that mode of thought, to the successes of what people of this world consider to be successes. However, Hashem, I know the truth. I know that the Torah teaches us that many of the happenings in this world are actually upside down in the next world, and in the next world are not success stories. Hashem, please help me to find the real success story that will be an eternal success story.”

359 - Road to Humilty

The Torah records a verse which states that the humblest person in all time was Moshe Rabbeinu. We know that the Torah was written by Moshe Rabbeinu at Hashem's command. So, in a sense what is happening here is Moshe Rabbeinu is writing about himself, “I am the humblest man of all time.” Some Torah commentaries explain that true humility means that a person is able to write about themselves, “I am the humblest man of all time.” And of course this being counterintuitive begs explanation. And the commentaries explain - what is true humility? To deny the fact that one is talented in certain areas is not humility; that is just speaking untruth. True humility means to recognize that every single one of my talents and abilities stem 100% exclusively from Hashem. Moshe Rabbeinu knew the truth. He knew that he was excelling tremendously in the character trait of humility to the point that he could write the truth in his book the Torah and tell us, “I am the humblest man that exists.”
However, the reason that that did not lead him to feel arrogant is because Moshe Rabbeinu was so clear that anything and everything that we are ever able to achieve is a direct result of Hashem's blessing. And therefore, there is no reason to feel arrogant or proud about the talents that Hashem has blessed us with. When one is living a life without emunah, mistakenly believing that they are the engine that drives their successes, sometimes they might be successful because that's what Hashem decrees, and sometimes they might not be successful because that's the way Hashem wants it. However, if they are successful, in a sense they are worse off than if they wouldn't have been successful. Because if we remember that the reason we exist, as the Torah commentaries many times explain, the only reason that Hashem created us and put us in this world is to have emunah and thereby earn our place in the world to come, and if Hashem has sent success our way, but we fail to recognize that that success was sent from Hashem, and we mistakenly attribute our success to our own efforts, that would be the greatest tragedy. Because although in our eyes this person appears to be successful, in the true lens of Hashem that we will only witness once we leave this world, when we see absolute truth, there is no success taking place here. Because this individual is attributing their success to their own efforts, which is tantamount to idle worship.
The approach of one who is living with an emunah perspective would be to recognize that I cannot do anything without Hashem sending me that blessing in the first place. And therefore, if I am super talented in whatever area that may be, I don't feel proud to share that information with other people that I am excelling and succeeding in this area because I know that the only reason I can do so is because Hashem is giving me a gift. Of course, we are all supposed to make our maximum effort in a practical way to succeed in our endeavors in this world. However, what is the most vital point is to remember that without Hashem, we cannot even lift a finger. But with Hashem, we are unstoppable. A life of emunah leads to a life of humility, and true humility means to recognize that anything and everything I am able to accomplish is only as a result of a gift from Hashem.

358 - Atomic Bomb

Imagine for a second that we were given the following offer. If we give $100 to charity today, we will prevent a certain country from dropping an atomic bomb. Even if it's difficult to get those $100 together, most of us would make a plan, because stopping an atomic bomb from falling is a very worthwhile investment to make.In a different scenario, if we were offered the following: If you are to sit down and say to Tehillem for one hour today, you will then cause a dying individual to be saved. Most of us would commit to that hour, even if it would be difficult, because we're saving somebody's life.
Let us not forget, the reason we were created, as mentioned countless times by the Torah commentaries, is to have emunah in Hashem. Emunah means belief. Belief means I don't know, I don't see the results, I can't understand why what I am doing is important and exactly how it makes an impact. However, I believe that if that is what Hashem's perspective tells me, that is for sure the truth. That is what I believe. When we say a word of Tehillim, when we do a mitzvah, when we learn a word of Torah, when we talk to Hashem in our own words, our job is to believe.
The Torah commentaries teach us that when we perform a mitzvah, learn a word of Torah, say a word of Tehillim, talk to Hashem in our own words, perform an act of kindness, or do anything towards our service to Hashem, even if in a sense we don't see any inspiration as a result of our deed, the Torah commentaries teach us that we are impacting spiritual worlds that are much bigger than we can even begin to imagine. If we were to know that just doing a certain good deed would make an impact in the world, like saving a dying soul or preventing an atomic bomb, in the same vein, if we were to know that performing a certain sin would bring about an atomic bomb on the world, most of us would think twice before performing that sin.
Our job is to build our belief - to believe what the Torah commentaries teach us. When we perform a sin, we are destroying spiritual worlds that have an impact much greater than an atomic bomb on our entire physical world. And in the same way, when we perform an act of kindness, we perform a mitzvah, we talk to Hashem in our own words, we learn Torah, we are impacting and creating spiritual worlds in a way that is much more impactful than we could ever have on this world. We are not just saving an entire nation. We are not just saving the entire world. We are doing something much bigger than that. Our job is to believe that because we do not see those things happening. Remember, the only reason for Hashem creating us and placing us in this world is specifically to believe. How do I bridge this gap?
The answer to all questions. “Hashem, I want to believe the truth. I am learning the information and trying to be inspired about the truth that my good deeds really make a bigger impact than anything I could imagine of this world. And also, conversely, when I perform a sin that is negatively impacting the higher worlds in a much deeper way than anything I could imagine could be affected in this world. Please Hashem, help me to internalize the truth that what I do is truly meaningful and help me therefore to really believe in You and really believe in the results of what I am doing. Hashem, please help me to believe more and more in You every single day.”

357 - Black & White Angels

We've been discussing that one of the highest expressions of Emunah is the performance of Hashem's mitzvos and specifically to perform them just because He commanded me to and not because I understand or agree with His understanding. It is so vital to perform the mitzvos based on our belief in Hashem rather than based on our agreeing with His logic because when we perform the mitzvos based exclusively on our Emunah in Hashem, our belief in Hashem, we will treat every mitzvah with highest priority and do our best to fulfill them with all their intricacies. The Mishnah in Pirkei Avos says that we ought not to treat one mitzvah as less important than another because truthfully, we don't know which are the more important mitzvos. One mitzvah may seem to us like something very potent and big and another mitzvah might seem to us as something very insignificant whereas in truth it might actually be the other way around. How are we supposed to find out? In this world we don't find out. In the next world we will see but in this world, we are just to believe.
If Hashem commanded us to do something even if in our eyes it seems to be insignificant, we nevertheless ought to treat it as if it was the most important mitzvah in the world. And in the same way if the guidelines within a certain mitzvah are very intricate and detailed, at first glance we may think - why are these intricacies so important? Let me just use a bit of my own discretion in the way I perform this mitzvah? Again, if it's based on one's own logic, one might mistakenly be misled down that path. However, if we perform the mitzvos exclusively because we believe in Hashem, whether the intricacies and the logic make sense to us or not is a detail, we perform all the mitzvos as if they are the most important thing in the world as well as treat the intricacies with great seriousness.
One of the classic halachic commentators, the Chayei Adam, records a fascinating episode that sheds light on this issue. He writes that there was a certain tzaddik who passed on from the world and now moved on to the next world where he had to give an accounting for all his actions and he was delighted to see so many what he calls white angels which represent the result of his good deeds, of so many blessings that he made, of so many acts of tzedakah, of so many words of Torah that he learned, of so many acts of kindness and many mitzvos that he performed. And then suddenly he saw some black angels which represent sin and he was quite surprised because he was a tzaddik and he really had a good record from his excursion in this world. So where did these black angels come from? And he was informed that these angels were created as a result of the blessings that he made without concentration. Now we may say, “look at least he made the blessings, that's a mitzvah.” However, on this man's level to say a blessing without concentration had tremendous serious consequences.
If we view the mitzvah of saying blessings just based on our own logic because we have to thank Hashem for the food, so one may argue perhaps that it's not so bad sometimes to not have concentration on our blessings. If we however base our performance of our mitzvos exclusively on how the Torah guides us to do them both in terms of their details as well as the reasoning for the performance of the mitzvah, our approach to the mitzvos would be very different. As mentioned previously, the Chayei Adam also writes that if one says a blessing without concentration it is comparable to a body without a soul. A body without a soul is dead. We all have the opportunity multiple times a day to say blessings. Let us internalize how important it is both to say the blessing as well as to do our best to concentrate on saying the words to mean what we say and of course the more we learn about what the blessings mean the more we'll be able to concentrate and sincerely mean our words that we are saying to Hashem.

356 - The Cutest Baby

Our goal in this world is to train ourselves to truly and sincerely believe and trust in Hashem's prescription. Hashem commanded us to perform many mitzvos. Some of them are easier to understand with our limited understanding, whereas other mitzvos are more difficult to understand. For example, Hashem commanded us to visit a sick person. That is very logical, even in our minds, that's a nice thing to do. Honouring one's father and mother is also a logical mitzvah. However, many mitzvos are counterintuitive. If we lived at a time where we were able to absolutely ascertain who belonged to the nation of Amalek, picture this situation, a cute little two-year-old child, the cutest child you've ever seen. Hashem gives you a mitzvah now, you need to go and kill that child.
One second, I don't want to be the one to do that, that's not nice, that's dangerous, people are going to view me as a murderer. Again, the reason we perform mitzvos should not be based on our own agreement to Hashem's will, as if He needs our stamp of agreement. Rather, we fulfill the mitzvos just because Hashem said so. In fact, one of the great halachic commentators, the Aruch HaShulchan, writes that the reason we honour our father and mother is not because we appreciate them. We honour them because Hashem said so. Any mitzvah we perform, we do so just because Hashem said so.
The Vilna Gaon writes that when it comes to the mitzvos that the rabbis enacted, many times, even when the reason that the rabbis have given us for performing this mitzvah is no longer applicable, we nevertheless still perform the mitzvah. And the reason for this is because there may be a thousand reasons for the performance of this mitzvah where the rabbis decided to disclose only one of the reasons. Again, our belief in Hashem and our belief in the great sages who were given the license to enact certain mitzvos, we perform those mitzvahs just because we believe that that is what we're supposed to do, even if we don't understand.
This line of thinking will help us to take all of the mitzvos and all their intricacies much more seriously. For example, we may say some lashon hara - bad words to another individual in privacy about someone else. And let's say these words never get out, no one ever discovers this private conversation of mine. How serious can what I did be? We know that the whole main purpose behind the prohibition of not speaking lashon hara about another is so that you shouldn't cause them detriment. But in this case, it was kept private and nothing actually happened. So how bad could it be? If we apply our own line of reasoning for the performance of the mitzvos, we could be led to making grave mistakes.
But if we treat the mitzvos as an expression of our emunah in Hashem - I believe in Hashem, and if He instructed me to do something, I believe in that. And if He told me that Lashon Hara, whether the negative information I related privately to someone was ever discovered, or even if it wasn't, if Hashem said that that is one of the most serious sins sometimes comparable to the three cardinal sins, idol worship, immorality and murder. Really? Is it that bad? If it's based on my belief in Hashem, I have no questions, because I believe Him. When we do mitzvos, let us internalize that the reason we are doing so is not because we understand, but because we believe.

355 - Back From the Dead

Our job in this world is to grow in our belief in Emunah and everything that that entails. As we've discussed, one of the potent areas Hashem has given us the privilege to be able to tap into is the words of Tehillim, the holy words of David HaMelech. And again, our job is to believe that our recitation of the words of Tehillim are making an impact. Even though we may not be able to experience and see the result of our actions, our job is to grow in our Emunah, in our belief that just like if a soldier is fighting in a war, when that soldier makes an effort and shoots a terrorist with his gun and sees the direct result of his actions, because the terrorist is now dead. In the same way, when we say Tehillim, we are protecting the people around us, we are making a tremendous impact in ways that we cannot imagine.
The following story that Rebetzin Tehillah Abramov recounts helps us to internalize a little bit of how the words of Tehillim are actually making a difference. There was a woman driving on the highway in Israel and suddenly there was a tremendous traffic jam, a complete standstill. This woman's custom was that whenever she'd be in a situation such as this, she would begin to say the words of Tehillim. Eventually, the traffic cleared up and she went home. About three months later, this woman attended a parents-teachers meeting at her child's school, and while she was there, another woman came over to her and said, “Hi, I know you don't know me, but I just want to thank you with all my heart for saving my life.” So, the woman says, “those are very kind words, but I have no idea what you're talking about.” And the woman who approached her says, “do you remember about three months ago, you were stuck on the highway in a standstill traffic jam? And whilst you were stuck in the traffic, you began to recite Tehillim?”
Now this woman is completely taken aback because she didn't tell anybody in the world about the traffic jam, nor about the fact that she recited Tehillim in the car. So, she's in complete wonder how this other woman knows that she was saying Tehillim in that traffic jam. So, the woman who approached now says, do you know the reason for that traffic jam on that day was because there was a car accident on the highway. I was the individual in that accident. And the accident was so severe that I actually died, what's called a near death experience. And she reported to the lady, I was floating above my car higher and higher because I was leaving this world. And suddenly there were some alef-beis letters that emerged from your car and pushed me back down into my car, which is when I came back to life, went to hospital, got the treatment I needed, and here I am. There are many, many stories recounted in a similar manner. But the bottom line is that there is no question that our words of Tehillim are making a tremendous impact. We all have the opportunity to say the holy words of Tehillim.

354 - Front Lines

In Hashem's great kindness, He has given us many opportunities of how to impact our lives in this world, as well as impact our future lives in the next world. One of the potent gifts Hashem has given us is the power of tehillim. Tehillim are comprised of 150 chapters that David HaMelech authored. If one studies tehillim, one will quickly realize that these are King David's personal conversations with Hashem, both through times of joy and happiness, as well as through times of sorrow and challenge, David HaMelech was in constant communication with Hashem. In addition to these words of tehillim being David HaMelech's personal and meaningful words of conversation with Hashem, these words are also imbued with a special holiness based on divine inspiration, ruach hakodesh, that David HaMelech had.
Each one of us has the constant opportunity to recite the holy and potent words of tehillim. If we were to see the results of what happens when we recite the words of tehillim, we would not be able to stop because it would be so obvious how impactful we are being on the whole world. But again, our job in this world is to internalize the belief, the emunah, specifically when we don't know and we don't see the results. Imagine for a second that there was going to be an atomic bomb on a certain country and you knew if you were to recite tehillim now for 20 minutes, you will prevent that atomic bomb from landing. Most people would go ahead with those 20 minutes, even if they're very tired, because again, you're stopping an atomic bomb from wiping out an entire country.
In the same way, imagine for a moment that the spiritual impact and result of my recitation of tehillim is going to bring about such blessing to win the war that we're going through, that no more soldiers will be killed or even injured, that anybody who's been taken into captivity will be returned home safely, and that those who have already been injured will have a complete recovery and that we will have complete victory over the enemy. The army that is fighting this war is comprised of many different segments. There are the soldiers on the front lines, then you have the cook in the kitchen who has to cook food for the soldiers, and in a sense, the soldier on the front lines who is risking his life on a constant basis can feel a much greater sense of accomplishment and purpose and doing something meaningful, being right on the front lines, fighting for his country, whereas the cook in the kitchen might feel of less purpose. Of course, we all understand that the army is a team and every segment is needed. If the cook would not be there, there would be no food for the soldiers and they would not be able to fight, and therefore, every component of the army is needed.
We might not be able to be on the front lines fighting in the army. However, if we internalize the Emunah, that the spiritual impact and power of Tehillim is what will send success to our soldiers, we will recite our Tehillim with the same dedication as those soldiers fighting on the front lines. Now again, our job in this world is specifically to believe when we don't see nor understand the results of our actions. We are taught from the Torah sources that the power of Tehillim is so great that it affects our world in ways we cannot even imagine. We all have the constant opportunity to say the words of Tehillim.